Oceans of Technology: My Regret

Beyond the sunrise, their is an awakening. It is my pleasure to be working with machines for the last 15 years. What I've learned working with machines is that they are deadly. Not just in a robotic physical war-like or Terminator or like Cyborgs from movie Cyborg X, the machines are deadly in terms of psychology. In Pakistan, we have power problems. Whenever I trust my systems to computer, it all gets lost. When I'm working on computers, the light goes and so my work and momentum. Imagine if you're painting on a beautiful canvas and suddenly wind tears apart your canvas and tools. That is what computers are to me. I'm sick of electronics.  I'd rather shift my attention to Bruce Lee. To get that  much lean body (and strength), the protocol for most people is Kettlebell swings plus combination of some form of Tabata or exercises like Box Jumps, I do jump ropes. I sometimes think why did God choose me specifically, in my context, to hand me all the Tech wizardry I had have since I was born. You know I'll just study, get a job, earn some money so that I can live and write like I do. I can't tell you how much I regret being born the way I am. I mean I was such an ignorant bastard. I hate computers. They are a source of ill for society. I abandon them like an abandoned child. I don't want Windows. I just need softwares that are based on good, old behavioural insights. I feel a big weight on my shoulders. I've started exercising and writing to get it out of my head. I mainly do it by self-experimentation. "What gets measured gets managed". Now or tomorrow, I will look at myself and say, "Is that what my career brought me with?"; stress, despair, ill health? Steve Jobs died of cancer. The only way I can survive is by building strength in my body. I, just am so sick of myself. What I spent my damn childhood on, every single hour of my life, was all for computers? So that one day multi-level logic steps in, so that I have to try things like multi-layered passwords just to protect my identity? For fuck's sake, we were better off hunting and gathering. We have to learn DNS Tools like Wireshark for Wi-Fi Traffic monitoring. We need to be paranoid. Really? Is that the future I'm building for myself. I'm crying in tears as I write this. I either die or become a Cyborg. Half human and half machine. Work out, have some strenght, sheathe and attack when necessary. Great, I have no complaints. Long Live Earth. Let the Cybertrons in. Let the Oceans of Technology take over. People like me will be made scapegoats, as I witness on a daily basis. Thousands of people I meet and they're always complaining about how their laptops are slow or dull and now I might save them. In trying to help other people and in solving problems, maybe tens of thousands of computer problems. I'm tired and sick and just want to give up. People expect me to be a lifeboat in the vast Oceans of Technology. The only way I can survive is to self-experiment, workout for strength, and become an emotionless, cyborg-like machine. You know, they want me to be pigeonholed into this one thing that I so came to despise. Future, is not as sexy as we think it is. Let alone WhatsApp or Facebook. Elon Musk is doing a good job, but he ain't a multi-level logic android. Period. It requires for us to collaborate on scale and for governments to develop scalable energy framework that can be deployed on each and every home, regardless of geography, if we want to survive Ocean of Technology.