Blending in

This thing, this cultural phenomenon we call as Karate is not some defensive phenomenon, although that's a good by product of Karate, but rather a way to master your body and mind. For Example, Bruce Lee's Jeet June Do required him to build strength above and beyond. So he'd eat Salads with chicken, personally I add a Post or Pre workout shake on 3 days a week, sometimes 4 days but then I reduce amount of eggs to one and add butter, the Blue band butter. It's weird to sit in Pakistan in a Private High School without much of a competition after I've lived my life in very competitive places, like the Army Public Schools. But I realize I can not only focus on Academia or future, but give time to develop the kind of education that is not developed yet in school system. Which means I can focus on building a cool body and just like 2008 to 2010 period in my life, indeed a miracilous and extra ordinary gifted period from God, in that period of my life I had no computer, no internet and anything. I didn't even read books at that time. In essence I had no life. Then the extra ordinary happened. Even though I knew computers and was exposed to a Pentium three in 2004s when I was just 4, I still itched to have a computer I can practice and a master to apprentice. So I did. One of my highly influential cousins, named Awais and he has no idea, taught me the art of computers. Actually, it was more like practical hands-on approach. I learned more from his example. I learned he was not just interested in one thing, meaning he was into 3D and then all this Blender and 3Ds Max and Photoshop and then programming. The problem was that my dad also used to learn from him, but there's a difference when a 6 year old watches and learns from a master and when a 40+ adult learns. My dad said, "I don't remember what I learned from him". That is my advantage. I learned things as a young underprivelaged Aaliyan. My lack of rich background, not just Wealth but activities of life, I was never ever distracted. Always focused on one thing: computers. In fact, I used OPP, which is Other People's Products, and I was knocked at first. I knew if I wanted to be great at this to outdo my dad at computers, which was my main motivation, even to this day as I age 18 years of age. I wanted to outdo my dad at nearly everything. It was my motivation. It was my drive. That's what drived me to sit through 8 hours of computer sessions WITHOUT USING ANY HARDWARE, and just watching my cousin use it. As a result of that reel, it was like 15,000 hours of movie or YouTube tutorial in all things computers. The best education. Now I think it was kind of like a bit of financial intelligence that I used OPP or OPM to learn. It was my passion and young age that allowed me to fit into this small cramped field called Computers. Even though I had no idea Computer Science existed, I was already practicing my early computer science muscles without even knowing I was doing. I was poor, broke and highly underrated. I was a miracle. Really. But considering this time, I am the only one in my whole family I grew up with, I'm the only one to ever obssess over increasing testosterones or building a fit body with strength and endurance as an advantage. It's 31 August 2018 and I'm the most lucky person in my world. Maybe I'm part of that Origin Story which David Christian talks about. Maybe I'm that underestimated Bill Gates and a person with high misconceptions. I think I get this advantage over my peers. When others obssess over grades, I can forget them so hard that I never imagine them. Sure, I'm gonna have financial problems, or that's what society thinks about me. It's weird. I am thought of as a lower class Asian kid. I hate that. I am not an Asian, I was never an Asian. In fact I never loved my family members. Each and every 26 September, I grew up and learned to hate family even more. It's getting big and bigger. I was unconsciously raised to resist my dad. He beat my mom when I was just 4. Now an 18 year boy when he imagines a cruelest joke one can play, which is beating your mom in front of you when you're just 4. I remember he even beat me. When I was in 1st grade, that imprint of his hands was still there. I remember how with pride he told everyone that he beat his son, but my mom never ever revealed he beat her. I hate him. It's not me who hates him, it's my Four year old who hates him. I can't do anything about it. He started a fire that he can't keep out. It's in my unconscious mind, I can't help it. I still get those thoughts. Maybe that's why sometimes I feel insecure. Anyways, let's get back to cars. I imagine a car whose selling lemonades, meaning an electric levitating car based lemonade stand, on which someone is selling lemon juice. Thanks to super conductors. In Quran, Allah says, "And what you believe are jokes and plays for them". That's true of my father. My belief, my convictions, they are all joke to him. My Mother's belief, my mother's convictions and love, it's all a joke to him. He never realized he raised his own enemy. One day he's going to realize he raised his own punishment. I was a test from God. God sent me to test my father. And for any test, it's like Gold. You put gold through all this hot temperature and at an absolute temperature, it comes up and purifies. I am that gold. I'm boiling in hot water. One day it's going to reach that critical temperature when I will finally come on top of liquid surface and then... really bad will happen. I was seeing this Careem ad on CNN. It was not an ad, actually a review of Careem and interview of CEO of Careem in Dubai. So these guys not only have to curate their service for ride taking, but also factors like the best food these travellers can get, and only those directions are shown for which they get the best lunch or dinner experience. It's great. Well if I ever go to Dubai, I will buy a Domino's pizza and meet people from all different disciplines and take book recommendations from them. People of all diverse interests. I will interview them and have lunch with them. Multidisciplinary travelling. I will also travel and learn Karate from trainers who teach the Philosophy of Bruce Lee: Jeet Kune Do. And I'm not the only one from family, the sisters of my mom were beaten by their husbands and now two of them are out of their homes in the home of the brothers of my mom. I hate it these guys can't take any accountability for this shit. God will yield his sword on all of my adults for punishing a kid for something he was not responsible for. God will attest all the harassing done to me. I'm not afraid. Allah will do justice. Period. Hey, I eat Nutella crackers and I actually saw my theory of Minimum effective steps (MEFS) in action as I analyzed the performance of a professional dancer. She picked the MEFS of song Thriller in such an awesome way. The reason the family of my mom is "intact" is because she never ever told she was beaten by my unfortunate father who will very soon face the justice of the Throne of All knowing Allah Almighty. My mom is rewarded for her patience, to go through all that bullying with so much conviction. I will never forget what my mom did for me. I'm crying. She put me into Army Public School. She got me the best education she can. I love you mom. Your face doesn't reflect the amount of love you put inside me. My dad says, finally, it was my mom who put all the hate in me. NO! IT WAS THE SILENCE OF MY MOM AND PATIENCE that gets me all fired up. Now that I'm a youngster, I know how difficult it must have been for her to go through all of that. For whom? for me. I am nothing. I can never repay what my mother did for me. As a two year old, I had no idea what my mother had been going through just to keep those good milk shakes and fried chickens and dairy milk chocolates in my mouth. How she taught me English and spoke to me as a kid. How she bought me my first CD of Shrek on a computer. How she bought those CDs with alphabet games on them. Your example gives me courage to fight my own battles with convictions. Tauseef mamun was right, "Every age has different set of challenges". I love you mom and her family. I thank my uncles for encouraging me to put all the hard work through education. To Yousaf mamun for picking my ears and squeezing them when I didn't perform good enough in school. To Danish mamun, for teaching me the value of patience and thank you for telling me at my difficult times, "Never give up". Thank you for all those Whatsapp messages. I remember those 6 A.M. conversations just prior to my final exam. Thank you for warning me time and again to eliminate distractions and to focus on what matters. Thank you Wasif mamun for motivating me to work on my fitness and football. I love you all and owe you everything. I would have been nothing without the guidance of you people.