Why I will be a Vagabonder

The great thing is that the F1 mobilization, meaning a car that can transform both into a sports car or maybe normal. Now the thing is any radical idea like that attracts radical and useless criticism. The surprising and sad thing about my family is that they think I want a job and be at computers all day long, maybe play a video game or read a book or two. Damn, it's like saying that a soldier loves using guns. NO! he doesn't. It's just something he has to use to protect himself, it's a necessity. So for me, my survival phenomenon are those things that my parents and their friends think I "enjoy". Parents think their kids are "enjoying" or that's the reason they are playing video games? hell no! the reason they play is because, as science has suggested, they are doing it to avoid that feeling of loss of focus during what psychologists term as "chronic boredom". As a result, these kids develop OCD-like behaviours. Do I need degrees to double down on my current habits? hell no!. I read because I self-criticize myself, but rather than saying, "Okay I am so screwed blah blah blah" instead I surround myself with people who possess the quality I so want to possess. It's such a simple principle. As a kid, I was in a co-education culture. One of the things our class teacher did for us was anytime, we start becoming an inconvenience due to bad social network, she would change our seats and get me surrounded to a girl or bunch of girls, the kind of girls with high grades and a badge of "monitor". And I would be fine. In fact, it was those times when I scored, always, an A+ !. When our co-education system ended after 4th grade, when I entered 5th grade, we were seperate. That's when my scores and grade started to go down and they, to this day, have been going down like a slow cancer. It is now that I have started noticing these things. Why? why is that when I was surrounded by neat and A+ girls who had more ability than me, personally speaking, I also took an A+ grade! not only for like one or two times. But throughout the whole year, I would always score an A. I realize now that since I'm surrounded by 80% of students who are male and are losers in their own lives. In 9th grade, our mathematics teacher said that the reaon they aced was because they all cheated, and boy I can attest to that statement. It's true. There was a lot of cheating. Now I see that, if I can't surround myself with good people today in education system, at least I can read books in home, and I have just one sister and most of the times, mom and dad are very busy. I've got plenty of time to read, to study and play at any time. In 10th grade, I had way better scores than now, in 11th grade in High School. I realize because I was hanging out with, let's say, an A+ kid. He was called "Peacekeeper". I realize by spending time with him occasinally and associating myself with him, due to such reciprocative effects, I ended up scoring a 383 in 10th grade, an 8.6% increase in marks, which means in the previous year, which is the 9th grade, I scored a 350. But now, in 11th grade I was in a private college and the mistake I did was at the start of these sessions in 2017, I was surrounded by very bad kids. The result? you know it, I failed horribly in Maths and Physics, the last one is the subject I never ever in my life before 11th grade failed at in final exams. I realize now that as I grow adult, I need to be really careful of who I spend my time with. Otherwise, no amount of degrees can ever match the practical learning you get when hanging out with people who are above your caliber. Mr. T said that I am useless in Pakistan, especially without degrees. He's right. If God sent me to Pakistan, one thing is clear: I will never be able to fit in Pakistan. But didn't God sent Muslims to Macca? yes he did and the Muslims never quite fit in that system. So what did God do? well we know later Muslims migrated to Madina, where they were welcomed and treated like brothers. Any attempt to help my family members in Pakistan is useless. They say in Football, a great player is enhanced when playing for an A+ team, but their is nothing a good player can do when Mid-fielders suck, or any of other part of team. I realize I'm a striker when it comes to the field of computers. I am naturally very good at dribbling and tackling as a computer programmer. But, I suck at goalkeeping, which is another way of saying that I suck at being a hardware engineer. I hate hardware.Trust me. I suck at the hardware function of computers. But I love the software part of it. I believe the thing about computers is that, 90% of people I meet take advises from me about HARDWARE?!!! and I'm like, "What the heck dude, I'm not the best person to ask hardware advice for...". Now I realize that my dad is an A-player at hardware, but in his own words, sucks at software. Now both of us collaborate to do projects that leverage talents of both of us, which we do together and earn a lot of money. The thing is I don't need a job. I suck at kissing asses. I love when I am challenged to work with people who are experts at things I'm no expert at. But you know, if I stay in Pakistan, the failure of mine in 11th grade is a warning from God that I will fail miserably in life if I stay in Pakistan. Why? Because like that ass who intends to give good advice to the cow who wants to escape its slavery and says to cow, "Pretend like you are sick!" and then the next day Master sees the cow is sick, so he takes the ass to the farm. Wow! he advised cow but at the cost of well-being of his-own-self. So it's not that I can't help Pakistan. But I can't scale my efforts here, like my dad. He works hard, earns hell a lot of money and flushes that money away on a family of 15 and you can realize, cars, pastries, food and other trivial things. As a result of "being settled" in a rented large house, there is nothing left to spend at things like Visa or Passport, which are not so expensive, even my driver had been to foreign countries, it's not that difficult.

I see my dad is asset rich, but cash flow poor.

Second, he is surrounded by middle-class, highly educated people who look down on him, or that's what he thinks of about himself. See? how lack of self-respect is a tool satan uses to induce poor people to do bad things in society?. Now I don't want to pretend people are all-angels. This model that what society wants, see I use the word WANTS, is always GOOD. This is total bullshit. I asked a PhD person what are his views on why Amazon wouldn't want to disrupt small-businesses in Pakistan? and his response was Amazon would be happy to disrupt businesses in Pakistan, but they are not sure of market demand and are unhappy of market size and product/market fit in Pakistan. Well, there you go. Any illusion of progress in Pakistan is just that, an illusion. Whether you are having expensive cars, a good home or luxurious food, it's all illusion. Trust me. Getting degrees in Pakistan is the last thing I would ever do in my life. I learned to distrust the people I hang out with. I don't trust anyone. It's my badge of life. "Never trust anyone". That's what I used to say to myself throughout the whole middle school, that's why I aced classes. Now I started trusting people, my scores gradually started to suck. There is no business of Aali being in Pakistan. Period. Talk about Venture capital. Chris Sacca said that he used to hang out and show-up at every kind of meeting when he was at Google. Now in Pakistan, it's opposite. The more I show up at meetings, the more distracted I am. That's why I have no interest whatsoever in higher education. But you know, it's not upto me. If God wants me to leave Pakistan, then I wouldn't resist that! I don't get to choose what happens to me, but I can always choose how I react to it or my reaction towards it. This ain't my cause, as Xander Cage would probably say. I don't shit in a bucket that's out of my control. Simple. But you know, maybe God wants me to be like Delilah from the movie The Tuxedo. Her real name is Delilah, but she works with millionaire under the guise of "Agent Del Blaine". This kind of kiss-my-ass attitude, balanced with a desire to not just get ahead but to be free from any kind of health, love, wealth and happiness issue is what the goal is. Every Pakistani wants this. I think it's fool to expect any of that from the education system. Mr. Kiyosaki gets it right. I learned more from my own experiments and practical knowledge distilled and deconstructed from wisdom of hundreds of authors of various books relating to many, many topics. I can't even count how much books I read. Maybe like, 90 or 150, something like that. I am not saying I would instantly be a winner for Shark Tank but what I'm saying is, like small giants, I can start small in a geography where I have freedom, support and tools to test things on my own. It's like business. You create MVP and have some leap-of-faith assumptions. That's it. Everything will go up only if it starts small and as a big fish in a small pond, rather than being a small fish in a giant pool of deadly, bloody sharks, and this is not a metaphor. Education system is a bloody hell. Where one man's success or more accurately, one man's reputation comes at the cost of hundreds of others. Just like the media who is destroying the fashion industry, by and large creating a misconception that fashion is some kind of modern hippie kind of era where only the rich are allowed. They may be right. Just look at the wives of our officers in Pakistan, they wear branded clothes and then debate in family meetings that fashion is bad. Wow. This kind of hypocrisy is common. If you read the book Sapiens by Yuval Novah, you'll see what I mean. We want to mobilize technology, but at the cost of morality. Our lives are like Microsoft HoloLens. We want to talk, but we want to talk in trivial and abstract terms that don't exist in real life. What exists only is our hypocrisy and double-life culture that is found in every home. I love when people talk about how they were NEVER entitled to fashion or other kind of modern era. Fashion is not bad. I love fashion, it is one industry that is creating a lot of jobs in Pakistan, trust me. In fact, I the project me and dad did with Lakhani's botique and Spa was a very lucrative project. We made them and gave them customized units of large-scale hall level automatic arduino based Hall Air Freshener sprayers, some for their botique which is in Islamabad, Pakistan and other units for their Spa, the Melange Cafe. I've met one of the businessman in Lakhani's chain of businessess, they call him "Malik". I like that guy. He's internally humble and very rigorous at the game of numbers. He does business in reciepts. I like that. This is how rich people function. They want proof of transactions. That is how accounting works. The thing is that the real students are those who will create jobs that ain't exist now, especially in the minds of Malik and people like him. I think, Pakistan is a LAND. I seriously think that Pakistan will drown, the Old Pakistan I mean, and an unknown kind of Pakistan will appear. I have no idea and I don't want to think of myself protected against risks. That's why, if majority of smart people and talented individuals especially computer science people are moving out of Pakistan to build their careers outside of Pakistan, then why should I stay here? It would be fool to think I am exclusive and I can succeed in Pakistan. No I ain't a son of Malik Lakhani. If Malik Lakhani was born as a middle class, then I'm sure he would've done the same. Remember, exclusivity is the number one excuse middle-class people and politicians use to trick us. It's a game of horrors. Don't think you are exclusive of horrors that are about to be blessed upon the state of Pakistan.

Exclusivity is the number one excuse we all need to get rid of and throw it into a dustbin.

My middle class family members suggest that I can be rich and successful if I stay in Pakistan and never make an effort to change my life. Nothing could be as boring and wrong as this ridiculous idea. And it's just that: an idea of middle-class working-class people. It is far from truth.