Never here, in a million years.

Computers are up. Principles are down. It is no use to slay the dragons if the effort takes up all your ability to later enjoy the meat. Just as a good DJ knows it's much better to integrate 4 songs at once rather than hundreds, to avoid noise. Every civilian knows that having vision is different from being a radical. Just because you do MED, minimum effective dose, of testosterone development, which in my case my refer to Kettlebell Swings 3 times a day or doing Kettlebell Clean and Press and Squat for a combined lollapalooza effect. Everyone has a trust account. In my case, my trust account is only limited to me, not my educated and talented expert relatives who think they are great officers. They are right, they are great corporate people, book smarts but they are rarely entrepreneurs. My shampoo of deeds tells me that sometimes, the shampoo can really overflow and be wasted rather than fully applied to your hair. To me, deeds are like that. 80% deeds you will do will be wasted. It's like if you are a cheap shampoo, you are still a cheap shampoo. One way ghosts of our society, the corpse of dead people with zombie brains, the kind of people like my educated family people, would ignore you if you don't have "Head and Shoulders" tag to your head. Meaning, cutting edge advertisement or cutting edge crap or more accurately, limiting voice of C grade students like me to cut the crap and bring the network of Video games to a halt, that's what these educated people live for. They forgot, if God sent us on Earth, it was to empower other humans. My way of that kind of empowerment is in form of an infrastructure, namely MUGAPP model. My voice will never be heard by big dragons. But even if they do, it will do me no good. On the other hand, it's automatic for me to form opinions. I can't shut my brain and "be focused". I ain't an animal. I also indulge myself in frequent plays or as they say, "catalyzation of mass sinning as a result of a crippling Earth". Just like Inferno movie, they think the only solution is to kill billions of people on Earth and kill their time and careers by limiting them to by-product of a country. If I'm born as human on Earth on Pakistan, should I be slaughtered too, just because my leaders are corrupt? Is that what I deserve? Or as they say, should I not enjoy my life just because I was born in a society with low odds of success? because I need security from criminals and crooked businesspeople who have an explanation for their sins? Hell no! I'd rather indulge myself in this "Point Break" but still keep my distance. It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society, by any measures. My education is tied to a sick society. My health? maybe not. I live a better life than unhealthy Africans. But education? it's still B.S. They assume I want to live like a geek, inside the world of programming, but they never thought was that result of mass genocide within this society, or is it that I just don't want to be well-adjusted to a sick society? I'll leave that to you. I do what I do because I HAVE to survive. Forget money. I am here thinking whether the egg I'm eating is a pure one, what the fuck would happen if I score an A in a test? so that I become a Pakistani? no! After many abuses, including sexual, later, I am just sick. As I said, one would further be forced to conclude that "it is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society". I got this lesson from movie Point Break. My own relatives hate the kids of their own brothers, how can I expect them to love me? hell no, it would be fool to not expect mass genocide of helpful and cortisol-based emotions. I don't expect my brain will release cortisol at much frequency in Pakistan, even if I do "become settled" here. I don't want to be "settled". I want to move, like my friends from Point Break.